A True Story of My Life
Once upon a time, I was the facilitator for
my sister and her friends' camping at Sg.Pisang
There was a jungle trekking starting at
11 o’clock in the morning
Alhamdulillah
Everything went well until my sister got
asthma because the river was so cold
What makes it worst was that she had once gone through a tragedy where she was sent into the emergency room
I was really afraid that the same tragedy would happened
So, I quickly sent her back home
I told my friends to proceed first
And I would catch up with them later
After I arrived back at Sg.Pisang
around 12.45 o’clock in the afternoon
I felt very hungry
I only ate bread this morning
And I did not bring any money
I thought that my friends inside the jungle must have some food
So I guess I just had to find them
I ran into the jungle on my own
Because I thought I was familiar with the track
I just kept moving along the river
Never dare to went far away from it
Whenever I went away from it
I stepped back and tried to find it back
Along the way there
The track was so difficult
There was so many torn , huge rocks, and also slippery slopes
Still, I kept moving because I thought
the others used the jungle route
While, I used the river route
Until after I met a very high edge
I guess this time I have to go through the jungle
So I went deep into the jungle
And finally I got lost nowhere in the jungle
Alone
I realized that I only had my watch with me
It was 2.30 o’clock in the evening already
The sounds of thunder and lightning really scares me
Not because of the heavy sound
But, because it was getting dark
And a heavy rain is coming
I decided to find the river back
Jungle track makes it harder for me to move
But Alhamdulillah
Allah still showered His mercy upon me
Finally I found the river
I took a wudhu’ and prayed zuhur there
In the river
Because there was no other suitable place for me to pray
That is the moment which I realize
how it felt, doing your last prayer
I remembered how guilty I am to Him
I had made so many sins
Big sins
My eyes
My ears
My mouth
My hands
My leg
And my dignity
All of them were used to enjoining what is wrong
And forbidding what is right
The river was so cold
And suddenly I felt very painful
I quickly ends my prayer
I looked inside my shirt and my trousers
I found out, leech and bloodsucker are all over my body
From the tiniest to the largest I have ever met
Argh..
I thought getting lost was enough to forgive all my sins
It does not seem so
I did not care what else would come after me
But there was only 'the tunnel' in my mind
The benchmark to the way out
To clean my body
To eat as much as I could
And to sleep as long as I could
On the way out
I ran
Using my energy to the maximum
As those who were in love always said,
“Setinggi2 Gunung-ganang sanggup ku daki,
Sedalam2 lurah sanggup ku turuni,
Seluas2 lautan sanggup ku renangi,
Setebal2 hutan sanggup ku redahi”
I guess saying these word is easy
But experiencing it..
I felt like dying
Very exhausted
Very hungry
And very thirsty
I drank the river water
Even though it looks dirty
Finally
My worst dream came
The heavy rain falls
The river moves rapidly
And it was getting dark and cold
But,
Alhamdulillah
All my fears vanished when I saw 'the tunnel'
I felt how much Allah still loves me
And still gave me a chance
To live once again
I looked at my watch
It was 4 o’clock in the evening
And suddenly
Everything became dark
I fainted
When I woke up
It was already 4.30 o’clock in the evening
I walked calmly to the road nearby
Towards the camp site
Towards my friends
Who
Never realized what happened to me
And I
Will never ever told them what happened
This is a story that I would hide it deep in my heart
Till my last breath
Because it reminds me that I am already dead once
p/s - Lesson learnt, 5 sebelum 5..Sihat sebelum Sakit, Muda sebelum Tua, Kaya sebelum Miskin, Lapang sebelum Sempit, Hidup sebelum Mati...
p/s - Let us free our heart from nisyaanul maut (melupakan mati)
